AHHHHH you serious?

k so first of all thanks corey for that upbeat and inspiring blog... im actually just glad you wrote in it :) ha jk. i will take the crabby corey writting then nothing at all.

second, im kinda freakin out for some reason and i decided to write it on here :) becky just got her call and she is going to salt lake city temple square mission and i am so excited for her. i was talking to my brother the other day and we were talking about making sure you go on a mission for the right reasons... well that got me thinking. am i going for the right reasons? i mean honestly am i? and i still haven't totally come to a conclusion but i have realized a few things. in the back of my mind there may be a few reasons that i am going that is probably not the best reasons like.... selfish reasons. reasons to go cause i will benefit from it. like i will be able to learn so much about the gosepl and i will learn the scriptures better and it will be so good for my kids. and i might get to go someplace cool. but all of those reasons if they were the only ones would probably not be the best reasons but they aren't the only ones. i want to go on a mission because i have become more and more aware that people don't know about the gospel and if they do they don't understand how great it is!!!!!! they don't know how to get closer to God and they don't understand how incredibly amazing and filling repentence and the atonement is! i had an aha moment about repentence a few days ago and it was basically that repentence and the Atonement is a pattern. its ok to have to be forgiven for your sins. its ok to mess up because once you mess up and are able to fix it your relationship with Christ becomes even stronger! i was always so mad at myself when i messed up and now that i have realized that it ok as long as i use Christ to repent than its suppose to happen. in the preach my gospel manual on page 6 it says somehing like it is the only way of living that will bring peace of conscience and enable heavely father's children to return to live in his presence! its the only way to have peace of conscience! its a stepping stone that i will have to continually have to keep stepping on until i can look at Christ when he comes and say i am clean! and so i realized that if i have been a member of the church for my whole life and i have just come to the realization of the importance of repentence. how lost some people must feel to not know anything and have the conscience unknowingly weighing on them! so that is why i am serving a mission! i want people that are lost or confused to be let in on the amazing gosepl! or if they do know about it they can understand it more! so wherever i serve even if its in some place all the people are members, they still have something to learn and if the Lord will help me i will teach it to them :)

so wow that was a huge shpiel. kinda got on my box. it was just a thought that i had that i really wanted to tell you guys. so point of the blog i am so excited to serve a mission and it doesn't matter where i go i will be able to help people and thats what is important.

so on another note, corey, if you want more people to be able to read this it can happen just let me know. and...... if you want me to change the background i can do that to. pink just fit to well :)

k im going to go hope that was an interesting enough blog for you corey. and whit feel free to correct any spelling mistakes i don't ever care to much about them anyway :) love you guys!